wow, this xanga set-up has gotten intense.  i get depressed and happy a lot when i think about the future.  it's all so soon.  i have to figure out who to vote for.  i am actually going to be a member of society.  but i kind of have been for a long time. part of me feels too mature for the fun people partake in at high school. actually most of me.  it makes me feel confused when i get pissed at people for littering or making an unnecissary mess.  i'll miss my parents, no i won't.  i hate my family.  but i'll miss something about these fall days and crisp air.  i'll miss cross county.  i won't miss the monotony of high school or the tyranny.  i won't miss conservatives or catholics.  i'm gonna get away from here, miami, fl.  it'll be a new world and i'm so ready.  but i'll be leaving something shittily sentimental behind. i'll miss it, or right now i'm afraid i will.